hazellexkiss: (Watermelon Sou)
2017-01-07 10:04 am
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Hello Dreamwidth

Alright, I've done it. I've imported my LJ to dreamwidth. Now what? HAHAHA

I've got to find all the friends and communities here I suppose. Whew.

And watch the New Year stuff that I've been missing out on T___T

Happy 2017!

School starts next week *cries*

I did manage 1 blog post here and on my wordpress, so that's an achievement for me HAHA.

Here's a sketch I did for my wordpress blog that I can't stop looking at and I just want to post it here as well HAHA:

meet Melody )
hazellexkiss: (Aiba(:)
2016-11-20 12:35 am

And I'm back again!

AGAIN, I'm back with another "I've not abandoned the fandom" blog post....Sorry haha...but with school and all my worrying about the future...I haven't been in the mood to fangirl over the boys recently.

Exams have just ended and I'll be doing some travelling this vacation...so I need something to kill the time I'm waiting at the airport or ont the plane etc etc. ALSO...there's nothing like a SEXYZONE x ARASHI episode that WILL drag me back into the depths of the fandom. PLUS, it was SEXY ZONE'S 5TH ANNIVERSARY and both SZ and ARASHI released new albums/singles....

Clearly, I've stayed away too long.

I have so much to catch up on.

I don't know if I can stay here as long because I...really ought to be finding a job to prepare myself for...adult (sigh) life after I graduate (soooooon...too soon).

So...yeah...sorry I just managed to bring back the heavy mood, right?

On a brighter note, I've gotten into journalling. I've always journaled....like I kept many many diaries and journals and notebooks of stuff. But this time...shit's gotten real and I've been taking it more seriously...with the intention of making them into memory archives of some sort....

Sigh, I've been watching too many bullet journal/hobonichi/midori traveller's journal vieos on youtube...and also been seeing oo many awe-inspiring journals on pinterest. Well....

on with my catching-up for SZ and Arashi!

I've got the SZxArashi shiyagare episode, various SZ performances of Yobisute and SZ's new album/pv/making....

Now I just need...to find the shokura episodes that I missed, Arashi's new single/album, any noteworthy vs arashi or shiyagare episodes....and listen to Nino's radio sessions (if I have time to find them).

(getting really annoyed with Mega's new thing about a 5gb limit...sigh)
hazellexkiss: (tanned Shori)
2016-08-06 03:45 pm
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Back from Korea!

Just a little post to say that I'm safely back home and that the 1 month I spent in Korea feels like a dream that never happened in reality...but I have PHOTOS to prove that it happened!

lol, I'm so weird.

I would love to blog more about my Summer School and how I explored Korea, both here and on my other blog, but I don't have much time. School's starting SO SOON and I have a ton of readings and boring (but important) administrative stuff to clear up.


So here's quick Hello~

And now Goodbye~

(I'm also SO behind on Shokura (only watched up to the Live Special) and also on everything else - where is SZ's new album!!! And Arashi has a new awesome song and single coming out?! Someone update meeeee T___T)
hazellexkiss: (Singing Shori)
2016-06-13 10:46 am
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Created a twitter account and watched Les Misérables!

I have this weird habit of creating social accounts and then deleting them a few months (or even some years) later. For the 4th or 5th time, I've set up a new Twitter account. My username is @adreamingcat and I think this might be the twitter account that lasts HAHA so if anyone wants to add me, just tweet me~

I've been using the twitter mainly to follow updates from Menimi to get the passwords for the 99.9% episodes(: I've also followed a bunch of Arashi updates accounts and some YouTubers that I like!

Last Thursday, I caught Les Misérables for the first time! It was quite an experience! Because of my dance background, I've been to the theatre to watch ballets many many times. I've also watched a couple of music/symphony/enssemble performances. However this was my first proper musical experience and I really loved it!

I'm going to try to catch Wicked next time when it comes to town! However, musicals are soooooo much more expensive T___T My pockets hurt from what I paid to watch it but we did get pretty decent seats that weren't too far away from the stage. Would have been nicer if I could see their facial expressions though but oh....the $$$$ that I can't bear to spend
hazellexkiss: (Aiba(:)
2016-06-10 04:52 pm
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Loving 99.9% and it's SUMMER

Right, it's SUMMER VACATION finally!

I'm really loving Jun's new criminal lawyer drama 99.9%!!! This is actually the first lawyer drama that I've ever liked. I tried getting into Suits and some other Asian lawyer dramas but....I get bored of them pretty easily. I really like Jun's character here! I'm also so glad that there's no romance here, any hint of romance is all just for comedic effect so far...it's a great drama(:

Summer vacation! And I feel like a slug again. I just want to laze around the whole day...

Oh and I'll be going to Seoul for 1 month of summer school in July! It's going to be 1/3 study and 2/3 play! I'm kind of worried about money but hopefully things will work out! If anyone has suggestions on what to do in South Korea, do let me know! I don't know too much about South Korea and Korean things so I'm open to ideas/suggestions!
hazellexkiss: (NINO ><)
2016-04-17 05:06 pm
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Pleasant surprise

Well, my mother was watching a Taiwanese Period drama just now and guess who I saw?

This handsome face )

Doesn't he remind you of Nino? I couldn't find very good pictures online but he really looked like Nino in the drama. Somethihng about those eyebrows, eyes and his upper lip. If Nino were ever so serious, this is what he would look like I suppose. Anyway, the Taiwanese guy's name is George Hu, if anyone wants to know more, you can google him.

This reminds me of Gao Yun Xiang hahaha who I thought looked like Kotaki Nozomu:

Over here again )

Again, I couldn't find very good pictures. Maybe cuz I'm not searching in chinese or on the chinese version of Google. So ther results aren't very many. In the first place, Baidu is probably a better search engine for all things Chinese but I've never used it before.

Well, anyway...that's all that I popped in to say...

Oh! Update on my big-catch-up-series. I've finally caught up on Shokura! So impressed with all of SZ's performances!!! Their new songs are great! MariSou's performance in basketball outfits was just bursting with energy! I like Kento's cool solo this time. The phrases are still quite lovey dovey but the music and especially the dance moves all have such swag~ Go Kento! And I also saw Takizawa's guest appearance and woah, he really has presence hahaha. Such a cool senpai. It really brings out such a masculine presence.

And there are so many new groups now! So many new faces. Time is passing so fast >< They're all growing up so quickly! The throwback videos that were shown during the Spring Vacation Specials were so adorable! All of the SZ members were so cute espeically FumaKen! (Shori is kinda the same although much skinnier). The aura/characters of the older guys (Miyabi, Hamada, even Fuma) were so different back then.

And I realise that Goseki is really really such a senpai....is it me or was he on the first episode of Shokura that someone shared the other day?? Just...wow. 
hazellexkiss: (V Shori!)
2016-04-11 03:45 pm
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(Finally) watched Miyagi Blast 2015

okay, I've begun my catch-up-on-arashi-and-sz sprint.

starting off with Miyagi Blast 2015 last night! I was feeling so down yesterday and watching the Blast really cheered me up(:

The dancing by Arashi was GREAT! i especially loved the little fan dance collaboration they did. So cool! The little talk session was hilarious too especially the part about Sho-kun and the towel merchandise LOL.

I only could watch Disc 1 though. the Disc 2 file had the audio missing >:
hazellexkiss: (Gray Nino)
2016-03-30 05:14 pm
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Almost there.

So I discovered a draft of an update that I tried to give...a few weeks ago and well, here it is:


Week #7 of the semester has started. I've completed a couple of mid-term assignments already and there are a few more coming my way. Boy, am I tired.

I had a week of break from school last week and it was such a blast. I didn't do anything from Tuesday to Friday. I stayed at home, slept, watched One Piece, did some colouring on photoshop, made tea and drank tea. That was it. It felt so good.

Last monday, I had a career counselling session with my mentor professor. It ended up to be almost 3 hours long. The thing is, while talking to her, I felt as though whatever she said made sense - I should be practical, I should do this, I should send my applications now, I should be pursuing this legal career since I am afterall studying in a law degree, what other job could give me the same intellectual challenge etc. Then she asked me what non-legal jobs am I seriously considering and I had no answer.

Yes, my fault for not thinking everything through. But the thing is I can't thi


And, yes, it just stops there. Well, I logged in today to give an update about now. We are about 3 weeks to the end of the semester. 1 month to the start of Summer. whoopie. Not excited. This is so sad. Because when summer starts, I start working. When summer starts, I have to start panicking about getting a job. Dang. When Summer ends, I'll be in my final year of university. Double dang.

Well anyway...I am so behind on the Johnny's fandom that I don't even know where to begint to catch up.

I still haven't sorted out the problem of my external hard disk storage being FULL. I tried zipping everything up to save space but..1) it isn't saving that much space honestly and 2) I can't watch or view the things that are zipped which sucks. So I haven't figured out what to do next.

Recently I've been feeling a lot of fear. Fear about the future. Fear about my life. Fear about supporting the family. I've been particuarly insecure lately. I wonder if it's because I'm not doing anything much. I've been resting in my shell for too long. I've forgotten how to impress people. But I don't want to impress people. I don't want the pressure and I don't want the attention. At the same time, I don't want bad attention either. Sucky grades. Lousy resume.

Sometimes, successful people scare me. Capable women intimidate me. Somewhere inside me, I scream that I'm not like them.

Well, that was an interesting twist to an update about me

so...that...folks is about all I have to update... Till next time. Hopefully I'll be able to catch up on Arashi and SZ soon >< but exams are coming T__T
hazellexkiss: (Yellow Fuma)
2016-01-26 08:43 am
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Third week of school and the blues are creeping in

So I need a yellow-clad Fuma to add some sunshine here HAHA

I've been spending a lot of time on this One Piece forum orojackson.com way too much recently. I need to control myself sigh. I need to study more.

I picked up a language module this semester and I hope that I can really learn this properly.

And here's a cheeky picture of Gaoyunxiang )
hazellexkiss: (Peace Fuma)
2016-01-15 03:11 pm

New Drama Love

Okay first post of 2016! \(^▽^)/

Three things to update:

#1. I've recently been into a Chinese drama which doesn't happen very often. The drama is 芈月传 or Legend of Mi Yue. It's a historic drama which is totally my thing. I love shows that have have a historic setting. I love knowing more about history whether it's English, American, Chinese, Japanese or Spanish whatever. I love it. Documentaries are fine but I also love watching dramas. I love hearing them speak, looking at the setting and their costumes (✧∀✧).

I really admire Sun Li as an actress and watched her previous period drama 甄嬛传 or Legend of Zhen Huan where she was also the lead actress. I heard she was acting another period drama and was like okay, let's check it out.I also wanted to check it out because they were saying that the drama's ratings lost to the popularity of another korean period drama Empress Ki and wanted to support Sun Li.

And right now I'm about peisode 21 and I think the drama is pretty good. I like the story. The acting in general isn't as good as 甄嬛传 in my humble opinion but I promise that it gets better. I think it's because the story relied a lot on children actors/actresses in the earlier episodes which I always feel is kind of awkward.

I also want to mention one cute guy that really caught my eye (◕‿◕)

His real name is Gao Yun Xiang and he's already married to another actress. And he's so cute here: )

#2. SMAP is disbanding? What is going on? The news is really shocking and kinda sad. I'm just waiting to here more news now. It's really crazy to think that the possibility of a boyband disbanding is such big news in Japan. I get it. I get it that SMAP is HUGE. But it's still crazy.

#3. Finally catching up with the last few Shokura episodes of 2015 and can I say that I'm loving all the costume-equality between the members of Sexy Zone? (〃^▽^〃)

That's about it from me. I'm already in my first week of school and it's looking up. I'm also thinking about taking up Japanese seriously.
hazellexkiss: (Watermelon Marius)
2015-12-03 12:37 pm
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Are you the type that arrives Early, On Time or 10 minutes late?

I'm the type that arrives early, then wait it out somewhere before meeting up with the others on time or late (if they're all late). I'm also the type that somehow ends up with a collection of friends who are always late.

When I was in grade school, I would get pretty mad. After a while I got used to it. Now it usually doesn't even bother me. So I guess this whole thing realky taught me the art of patience and waiting.

I'm not sure why I'm talking about this here. I'm just bored cuz I'm meeting my friends at 1pm, but here I am already at the right place when it's still 12:35pm.
hazellexkiss: (Sou-chan ^^)
2015-11-27 02:17 pm
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Happy 18th Birthday Matsushima Sou!

Happy Birthday Happy Birthday Happy Birthday!!!

Just this morning, I finally caught up with all the Shokura episodes that I've missed and KYAAAAAA I'm so glad that MatsuSou performed on one of the more recent episodes! The theme of that episode was "美" pronounced as "bi" which means beauty. The shokura started with FumaKentoShori singing [Young and Beautiful]. Then fast forward, Sou was on the Shokura Blog segment, and he shared how he thought Mt Fuji was what he associates with the word "beauty" which I think is so sweet of him. I couldn't help but notice that his presentation skills were so much better, he sounds more confident and he carried out his part really well. Then immediately following the blog segment, it was a performance by MatsuSou himself!!!

Can I just say, the perfomance was AWESOME. His voice sounded great! His dancing was great! He sounds, looks and feels more confident. Here's a couple of epi gifs that I saw on Tumblr:
Read more... )

I'm just so proud and happy for him that his performance went so well on Shokura!! He definitely has a different vibe from the Juniors.

This Shokura episode also had Fuma singing a cool solo, and Marius appeared at the ending song! So all five of them were present in the same episdoe!!! *excited jumping around* I'm hoping that Sou's lack of presence in group activities/idol activities were because of his final exams that all high schoolers in Japan take very seriously. So now that they're over, I hope that he and Marius would be making an awesome comeback(: Plus, the sexy zone pony canyon website shows all five of them. The new album also has all five of them. I'm hoping these are god signs!

Anyway, Happy Birthday Sou!!! Are you going to university? I hope to see you more often!(: All the best and love from,

hazellexkiss: (Sou-chan ^^)
2015-11-25 08:46 am
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Exams are OVER(:

Alright, finally I'm posting on my lj in a happy mood.

At least, I had every intention to post a happy post.

But. The first thing that I saw on my lj feed and wordpress feed was the news that Taguchi was leaving KATTUN and Johnny's next year. That took me by surprise. Based on what I'm reading, this is taking everyone by surprise.

I'm not a KATTUN fan or anything. I just think that Kame is cute and watch him in some VS-Arashi episodes and when he comes on other Arashi variety shows and dramas. There was one episode...maybe it was an Arashi ni Shiyagare episode that I caught where Kame was sharing about his experience dealing with the whole 6-member to 5-member to 4-member KATTUN. Everyone knew it was difficult for them to go through and stay strong, and I admired his tenacity and will. After that episode, I still wasn't a fan but I knew them and respected them.

This time, KATTUN will be losing another member, and I watched the live broadcast when the group announced it. Their faces were really grim. I hope with all my heart that they can pull through and that things will work out for them. I hope that all their efforts won't go to waste and that they can enjoy the life of an idol without having to deal with anymore breakups. The life of an idol is not easy, but it's something that all the boys entered into Johnny's wanting. They knew what was to be expected. But having to lose three members successively is just....

Anyway, good luck KATTUN!! It'll be their 10th anniversary next year, maybe I'll try to get to know KATTUN more to celebrate it with them.
hazellexkiss: (Fuma)
2015-11-03 09:46 am

Very unprepared

Yesterday didn't go so well and today isn't going very well either. I wish I can just skip classes today but it's the last lesson and therefore cannot be missed.

No matter how much I don't want to be here.

I wish that I had taken a gap year now. I wouldn't be wasting my life away like this. I'm trying not to waste it but...
hazellexkiss: (NINO)
2015-10-20 10:40 am
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Why Am I Here?


I'm in a degree course that I don't enjoy substantially...but there are some things that I do like about this...

Like how there are many interesting opportunities available

How the school is small and sort of cozy. (while it can get claustrophobic at times)

I like some of the people that I have met.

Skills? Not sure. Confidence? Maybe. It can be argued that law school has instead shattered any shred of confidence that I had. Out of my shattered confidence, I now instead have a rather confident set of indifference. I no longer care that I'm not scoring well or not doing as well as my peers. I like what I like. I don't have to follow the crowd. I don't have to mix with people that I'm not comfortable with. If I prefer to be alone, then I will be alone. I don't have to go out for drinks with them.

Boys still are the creatures that only talk to me when they think I'm pretty or exotic. Give them a few months and they lose interest. They throw me aside like I was trash and go after the next pretty girl.

This post isn't making sense, now is it?


I want to listen to the new Japnoism CD. I want to buy the new album. I want to buy many things.

tired. even though I've already slept a lot. It's not a physical tired but a mental and spiritual one I think. I'm just tired of having to drag my feet to law school and back.

sigh. God help me.
hazellexkiss: (polka shori)
2015-10-08 02:09 pm
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Alright, it's been FOREVER since I last posted. This was probably the longest break I took from the JE fandom (at least LJ-wise). I think I stopped checking on JE stuff since summer started and now it's properly FALL and we're heading into winter (Christmas is coming! but first, finals><)

By "break' I mean completely no checking on the LJ feed relating to any Arashi or Sexy Zone updates. I didn't download their tv shows or listen to their new music etc. Right now, I really miss Shokura, Sexy Zone Channel and VS Arashi. It seemed like there was a bet de Arashi recently too! This morning, everything changed when I decided to vist my LJ feed and I listened to Nino's Baystorm. GOSH, the new track that he played - ILOVEIT. It's from their new Japonism album so yeah I'll have to look around for it (if it's already out) over the next few days when I'm free.

Tbh, it's a rather strange time for me to get back into the fandom. I'm approaching finals steadily...and my laptop has broken down so there's no real point of downloading anything I suppose. Right now I'm using a tablet and I've downloaded a lot of school-related documents already. Do I really need that new Japonism album in here? Yes I do, We shall see. At the rate things are going, I might even find out that Sexy Zone has also put out a new single/album and gahhhhh

so yes, not a very good timing to be falling in love with JE again. But what to do? I miss the boys, their voices and personalities.

Also, I am aware of Riida's recent 'scandal' and my heart goes out to him. Seems like the girl has suffered some repercussions and I hope Riida is coping okay with everything.

Speaking of coping, I really wonder how Sou-chan is doing and whether he has made his mark yet?

Another point that I'm curious on the state of Nino's hair. The radio broadcast that I heard is definitely recent and he said that he hasn't gone to cut his hair and everyone keeps telling him to cut it. But he's resolved to not cut it when he doesn't have to (because of dramas or whatever). He even dwelt on the possibility of long hair! A long-haired Nino! Hahaha, will you really do that, Nino?

Alright, I should get back to work. I have mountains that need moving *rolls up sleeves*. Hopefully I'll update more and sometime soon too. Bye!
hazellexkiss: (polka shori)
2015-02-28 09:00 am
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It's been AGES since I last posted a blog entry here

But that doesn't mean that I have been neglecting my blog. I have been faithfully checking my feed page for all the yummy Arashi and Sexy Zone updates (a big thank you to those kind souls who share and upload stuff for other fans!)

Okay, so an update...

I'm coming towards the end of my second year in college. I'm finding the subjects more interesting this year. they arent very...career-worthy subjects tho...sigh. I hated last semester, and that was the one made up of THE most career-worthy subjects. BAH. I'm not sure where I'm going with this degree...but I'm sure I'll find out and nake up my mind by the time I graduate.

Okay, next update, I have an essay due on Monday, but I'm only 25% done. SIGH.

Moving on, I've downloaded so many sexy-zone and arashi related things but I haven't had time to watch them D:

Lastly, I'm a terrible author on fanfiction. I haven't updated since Christmas. BUT, I do have about 70% of the chapter done. I just didn't have time to finish it up. (sometimes, I'm also not in the mood) I want this one to be really long after the pathetic short snippets I released last time I updated. But yeah, last year was just terrible.

okay, that is about it. A long update on my life. Cheers.
hazellexkiss: (Nino :3)
2014-11-30 10:34 am
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Holidays are HERE.

I have an internship in about a week though.

So I'm definitely going to make this one week a great week.

A week of rest. I'm going to meet people who have time to meet me...or who make the time to meet me. If you don't bother making the time for me when I tried to make time for you, then nevermind us.

What's 7 years of friendship afterall?

Absolutely nothing aparently.

On to more wonderful and fun things this week!(:
hazellexkiss: (NINO)
2014-10-27 02:49 pm


in my previous post, I said I might have found buddies.
well it turns out.... )

In other news, I don't have much time. I'm supposed to be studying but:

  • I need to watch the Digitalian MAKING

  • I need to catch up on so many episodes on SZChannel that it's not even funny

  • I need to catch up on Shokura too

  • at this rate, i'll only be able to catch up after christmas

  • on a side note, I watched a bit of the Shokura episode in Osaka the other day! Who else remembers Richard from Sexy Zone's Concert video????? I always wondered who he was! So now I know he's a Kansai Junior! And he's pretty funny! I wonder if him and Fuma are close ><

  • Kishi IMY ):

  • I do like Otoko Never Give up though! Even though there's only 3 of them):

  • I miss marius and Sou-kun

  • the digitalian album is...taking some time for me to love. but I love more than half the songs already!

  • It's not that I hate techno

  • I like techno, unless it's too noisy

  • I think Disco Star is too noisy

  • I love ZERO-G


hazellexkiss: (Fuma)
2014-08-21 10:46 pm
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School has started. I probably never mentioned, but this is my second year in University.

This is only the second week of school, and I am stressed. Already.

There's too much, so click here if you want to read my...semi-rant. )

I don't know how things will work out...but I'm hoping for the best.

At times like this, looking at people like Fuma, Kento, Shori and Sho-kun motivates me. Especially Fuma...

how can they juggle the life of an idol, the life of a college student and the life of a teenager at the same time?
how can they get good grades, sing so well, dance so well, remember all the words to a song, the moves to a dance?
How do they manage to do radio broadcasts, variety programmes, talk shows, performances and concerts while at the same time having to meet the demands of school, of friends and family and a social life at the same time?

I don't understand it.

But I guess it's the resolve they have. They know what they want. They want to be an idol. They want to have a degree. To have both, they are willing to work hard.

In contrast, I don't know what I want. I don't know what I'm working hard for. And therefore, I'm bummed out and flopping around, while they are shining so brightly....